men

Yes..my new post is about men..again. Let me remind you guys that I'm just talking in general..alright? So no hard feeling.

Just now I dunno why all of sudden I was wondering what goes on men's mind after having a huge fight/argument or breakup. Seriously I don't even know why..so please don't bother to ask me okie..? I even ask the same question to my boyfriend. Anyway back to topic, I was wondering do they think about what happen, what went wrong? Do they ever feel regret? I always think that they don't even bother to think about all this, because most of the guys I know don't bother about all this. They seems okie right after the fight or breakup..they have this "everyting is okie" look on their face. Deep down inside, are they okie or do they feel hurt as well?

One more thing that I do noticed is right after the fight they don't even wanna talk about it. Why? Don't they wanna make things work? Don't they wanna share how they actually feels? From my opinion, I think they should let it out and every problem should be solve..right? I mean, if you wanna make it work, u have to talk to each other and figure out what causes the problem and fix it. But I do know some problem bukan senang nak settle, but you just have to try..kan?

Men.....why do they have to be soooo complicated.

reasons why guys always cheat

A friend of mine told me that her boyfriend is having an affair. I'm not surprise because he's quite handsome for a typical Malay guy. Well, she's not the only person having this kind of problem, banyak lagi perempuan ada masalah macam ni (including myself..with my ex). Whether a man is good looking or not, I just don't understand, why would they having an affair? Ada lelaki untung dapat girlfriend yang cantik, smart, baik buruk tu tak tahu la nak cakap (u guys should know better pasal partner korang)..but as far as I know the girl is being loyal to the guy. Apa lagi yang tak cukup??? If you're not happy with your partner, just tell them straight away that you're not happy and figure it out together how to make things work..if it doesn't work jugak then breakup jela. Bagi lelaki yang dapat girlfriend yang perangai dia macam haram tu, tak payah la cakap banyak..cari je yang lain..banyak lagi bunga kat luar tu..ceywahh!! =p

If you guys notice..cheating seems a new trend..it seems like if you don't do it, it ain't cool. Here are the possible reasons why guys always cheat....

1. They are not ready to have commitments.
2. They no longer feel satisfied/stimulated in their current relationship and are too cowardly to end the relationship
3. They like various sex partners.
4. They crave the initial excitement and illicitness of a "secret" affair.
5. Men are single-minded and don't think about the consequences of their actions.
6. Some men cheat because they think they can get by with it.
7. Some cheat because they don't take their relationships seriously.
8. Guys cheat because many of them increasingly feel powerless in a society that is giving women more rights & powers in the domestic & public spheres.
9. Men stray outside of long-term relationships to remember what it was like to be desirable and free. "Schedules" and routine destroy self image.
10. Having sex with more than one woman is an ego boost for those with low self-esteem.
11. Men cheat because they are bored in their current relationship.
12. Lack of or poor communication with the spouse/girlfriend can lead a man to cheat.
13. Other people are something new and different.
14. You have no old baggage with someone new.
15. Maybe they want something with ''no strings''
16. Different people have different likes and dislikes.

Goodbye Middle East.........

..............................HELLO MALAYSIA!!! 

Finally, on the 10th December I came back to Malaysia. I've been staying in Middle East for almost 5 month. It's been great..I had a great time there with my family. Unfortunately, I didn't make any new friends..orang unta are very arrogant. SERIOUSLY!!!

The first day I got here the weather is quite hot but surprisingly I feel okie and didn't complain about it. The next day it starts to rain. Ooowhh hujan..lama tak rasa suasana hujan. I thought I was the only person missing the rain season, bapak ku pun sama rupanya..siap mandi hujan..2 DAYS IN A ROW!!! Mom was so angry (not literally..membebel jugak la). After a week he fell sick..hehe. I've got lots of things to do this whole month and I have no time to go out with my friends =/  sorry guys..its not that I don't want to, but I'm seriously busy + my parents are here for only 3 weeks so I wanted to spend time with them..I will see you guys next year okie..? =)

Few days ago I went to ***** College to register myself in. To be honest, I don't know how I really feel with the idea of going back to college..because..........I've been on holiday for 9 MONTH. Tulah cuti paling lama saya ambil dalam seumur hidup saya. Kalau pregnant dah beranak dah kn? I didn't plan to take a break that long, it just happen. Panjang cerita dia. At first I'm quite excited to start class but when the time has come, part of me feel excited & nervous (al maklumlah orang dah lama sangat cuti, jadi excited & nervous lah nak start balik class) and part of me not really excited about it...macam mana tu? *sigh*

Well, it's already 12.24 a.m. and I'm quite sleepy..will update my blog when I have free time..good night guys!!

Back In Action.......?

It's been a while I didn't write my blog. Something happened, and I've been trying to get back on writing and posting ever since. But, as usual I just don't know where to start.

Today, me and my mom were supposed to go to the mall...mother and daughter bonding time =p  Unfortunately, I'm not feeling well this few days...slightly fever and sore throat (paling teruk and it's killing me!!) Jadi terpaksa ditundakan ke weekend...ceyh!!!

Summer is coming to an end. Now I don't have to worry about my skin getting burn...lol. Ever since I got here, my skin is getting dry and I started to have pimples...again! Aaarrgghh!!! I seriously need a facial treatment right now. Can't wait to go back to Malaysia and make an appointment for facial. Oh, not to forget, food!! Ya Allah..I've been craving almost everything this past few month..lol. I told my parents, bf and few friends that when I'm back I wanna eat everything that I've been craving for. I may be skinny, but I eat a lot (well, it actually depends on my mood jugak).

Omg!! I totally forgot to take my medicine..shit!! No wonder I'm not feeling drowsy =p  I already take my medicine and now it's time for me to go to sleep. Good night ya'll!!! 

22 Ways To Make A Girl Smile

1. Tell her she is beautiful (not fine, or sexy)

2. Hold her hand at any moment ...even if its just for a second.

3. Kiss her on the forehead.

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.

5. When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.

6. Recognize the small things....they usually mean the most.

7. Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.

8. Write her notes (she loves them)

9. Introduce her to family and friends....as your girlfriend.

10. Play with her hair.

11. Pick her up, tickle her, and play-wrestle with her.

12. Sit in the park and just talk to her.

13. Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, or just tell her jokes.

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.

15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.

16. Give her piggyback rides.

17. Bring her flowers

18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile.

20. Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.

21. Kiss her in the rain.

22. If you're in love with her...tell her.

raya in Middle East

Hey guys... How was everyone's raya? I bet mesti best gila...well, mine is SUCKS!! I tell you why...this year is my first raya di negara orang. I used to love raya so damn much and this is the first time ever I said my raya celebration was sucks and I hate it. I thought I might cry pagi raya because my grandparents, my aunt, uncle and cousins are not here with us...surprisingly, I don't. I don't even know why..lol. Mungkin sebab I know that I will be back end of this year or early of 2010..mesti akan jumpa semua orang punya...can't wait!! Apa-apa pun I'm very thankful that I still have my family with me. Lagipun my mother dah nekad nak balik raya kat Malaysia tahun depan. Thank God she finally comes to her senses..lol

Raya kat Middle East ni tak ada la best mana pun..pasal org arab ni semua tak celebrate Aidilfitri besar-besaran macam kita kat Malaysia. Tapi dapat jugak la kitorg makan makanan raya pasal my mother masa kuah kacang, rendang and nasi impit..ketupat (my favorite) and lemang je tak ada =(  Although I don't like lemang tapi hari raya kalau tak ada lemang tu macam tak complete..am I right? Around tengah hari, kawan my mother datang rumah beraya. She's an egyptian..dia datang the whole family..and dia bawak kuih raya orang arab. Dapat la merasa..kalau nak beli mahal gila okie! 1kg can cost you around 100++ Riyal..can u imagine how expensive it is? 1kg boleh dapat berapa ketul la sangat. Gila!!

Petang raya kitorg pegi rumah kawan my parents. It was okie lah..bosan jugak actually..hehe..since semua nya orang tua and kids, tak ada budak yang around my age pun =( tak dapat la nak buat kawan pun. Raya di rumah Malaysian kat sini bukan nya dapat duit raya pun..huhuh..kedekut!! Even my brother yang kecik ni pun tak dapat duit raya. Pasal orang arab kalau beraya memang tak bagi duit raya pun..agak nya diorg ikut style orang sini kot. Apa-apa pun I just can't wait to celebrate raya next year kat Malaysia..balik kampung!!! Yeay!!! So here are the pictures on first day of raya...ada banyak lagi but I'm too lazy nak upload semua.

we were perfect, but what happened?

You talk to me,
And my heart skips five beats,
This overwhelming feeling of happiness washes over me,
I feel like I can do anything,
And no other has ever made me feel this way,
I get your text at night,
And a huge smile creeps on my face,
Making me look like I’m smiling like an idiot,
We know each other so well,
Almost better than I know myself,
Those small comments,
And meaningless statements,
Are the things we remember about each other.

We’d text until 3 am,
Not even talking about a direct subject,
Just random thoughts,
That just flowed out,
And felt so natural to talk to,
And easy to start any conversation with,
There was never a dull moment,
Always laughter from your humor,
And excitement with every word that would come from you,
My best memories are with you,
Are yours with me?
I remember it all,
Do you remember it too?
Or is it just me trying to not let you go,
And holding onto everything I possibly can,
Because I'm scared to let you go,
No one is you,
And could never take your spot,
My heart is with you,
And will be until you open your eyes,
And you’ll see it’s right with you,
Where it belongs,
Where is should always stay,
Because from August on,
It was always yours,
You just never knew,
But I know you’ll come back,
To where you belong,
And that’s right here with me,
You’ll kiss me through the phone,
And we’ll catch the love bug again.

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin

Hey guys... 

I would like to sincerely take this opportunity to wish all the Muslim SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN. I know I've hurt so many people throughout the year but I'm just a human being that makes a lot of mistakes in life. I hope that everyone can forgive me and I've forgiven you long before you ask for forgiveness...let's start new chapter and move on with our life. I hope that you guys will enjoy and have fun balik kampung celebrating this very special day with your family and friends. 


with ♥

TARRA KAMAL

Long Distance Relationship

First of all I would like to say, NEXT WEEK DAH RAYA...yeay!! I've been busy helping mom baking cookies (kuih-kuih Melayu), tapi takde rupa macam kuih Melayu sebab takde acuan untuk buat shape dia..so rupa dia macam kuih mat salleh lah..ada bentuk squirrel, bear, bla bla bla...rasa macam nak Christmas saje. However, I'm not really excited because most of my family and relatives are in Malaysia..I'm currently in Middle East visiting my parents. I bet pagi raya ada orang akan 'melalak' and habis banjir rumah! =(   Enough talking about raya..it makes me sad..

Well, today is the 3rd week of September and it's almost 2month I'm in Middle East. I've been spending my time at home watching TV, surfing on the internet, play games, chatting with my loved ones & friends, berjalan ke hulu ke hilir with my family. Thanks to technology these days we are able to keep in touch with each other =) I just can't wait to go back to Malaysia to meet everyone especially my grandparents, my crazy n loving aunt, my sweetheart, and my friends. We've been together for 4year and this is the first time we got separated for quite a long period..5month to be exact (July-December). To be honest, I'm kinda scared and worried..I mean anything can happen within a minute, right? Inikan pulak 5bulan =/ I know he's worried and sad too..tapi biasa lah lelaki kan? =p Before i leave, he said to me not to worry everything will be okie and he will be waiting for me and I trust him..lagi pun before I leave, pagi tu dah dapat berita tergempaq from 'ehem ehem' (cannot tell)..and I feel so relief and ready to leave with positive thoughts in my head =p

Walaupun dah penuh dah semua positive thoughts dalam kepala otak ni, worried tu tetap ada. But I know that long distance relationship requires extremely strong trust, commitment, guidelines and communication. It's not easy and requires a strong promise between you and your partner. Trust is an important thing to maintain the relationship because lack of trust can damage the wonderful relationships. As i said, I've been spending most of my time at home, while he is busy with his classes and stuff..but we try to keep in touch daily by chatting and sms. So far, alhamdulillah..everything went well..we are still together and counting days to see each other =)  I miss hanging out with him, have breakfast/lunch/dinner together, holding hands, hug him, kacau dia, bla bla bla..like any other normal couple would do..

for the one i loved

What i gonna do just to be with you

All the happiness that i just found in you

All the smile, hope you’d bring

Always stays inside of me..

and now that you’re gone so far

Hoping someday we’ll be together

An endless night to stay with you forever..