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Friday, March 19, 2010
life
It's been a hell of 2weeks I tell ya'll.
I was sick for almost 2weeks, really sick I tell you..but still I managed to go to class. Jim kata "You ni nak tunjuk kuat sangat"...haaiih la sang boyfriend, kalau ikut hati nak je mc for 3days tapi kerja banyak sangat..I have no choice. The first 3days sakit, I went to the doctor, didn't get mc because the doctor said I'm fine. Few days later I felt so uncomfortable, my head and my eyes hurt really bad and I felt really tired. My body just can't take it anymore. Went to the doctor again (same clinic, different doctor), the doctor check my blood pressure and do blood test...and said he suspected that I might have dengue. The doctor said I have to come again to do blood test.
Ya Allah!! Rasa frust pun ada, nak marah pun ada, nak menangis pun ada..I have alot of assignments to do and he's telling me that I might have dengue?!! The worst part is my parents and my aunt was not around..my parents is in Middle East, my aunt was in Penang outstation. At that time I felt like going to the airport buy the next ticket to Middle East or Penang. But I'm so touched and thankful that I have Jim's mom masa tu. She's a mother kan, so she's being so nice and caring..she offered me to stay at her place so that dia boleh tengok-tengokkan...but unfortunately I can't stay at her place because I have to go to college very early the next morning. Tak larat rasanya nak drive from her house to my college dengan my condition macam tu. Went to the doctor for the third time to do blood test..still suspected dengue. The doctor said, "Come again tomorrow." Haaiiihh...... The next day I went to the clinic after class..and Alhamdulillah the blood test result was okie. Then the doctor said, "Esok you tak payah datang dah." Sumpah lega gila!! But still badan rasa letih sangat-sangat.
Today I feel alot better, even my friend said "Harini u nampak active." Mau tak active sampai boleh jalan kat hall way sambil menari, dah macam orang gila pulak kan...hehehe. Hopefully next week and weeks to come will be a great week for me. Amin!
I was sick for almost 2weeks, really sick I tell you..but still I managed to go to class. Jim kata "You ni nak tunjuk kuat sangat"...haaiih la sang boyfriend, kalau ikut hati nak je mc for 3days tapi kerja banyak sangat..I have no choice. The first 3days sakit, I went to the doctor, didn't get mc because the doctor said I'm fine. Few days later I felt so uncomfortable, my head and my eyes hurt really bad and I felt really tired. My body just can't take it anymore. Went to the doctor again (same clinic, different doctor), the doctor check my blood pressure and do blood test...and said he suspected that I might have dengue. The doctor said I have to come again to do blood test.
Ya Allah!! Rasa frust pun ada, nak marah pun ada, nak menangis pun ada..I have alot of assignments to do and he's telling me that I might have dengue?!! The worst part is my parents and my aunt was not around..my parents is in Middle East, my aunt was in Penang outstation. At that time I felt like going to the airport buy the next ticket to Middle East or Penang. But I'm so touched and thankful that I have Jim's mom masa tu. She's a mother kan, so she's being so nice and caring..she offered me to stay at her place so that dia boleh tengok-tengokkan...but unfortunately I can't stay at her place because I have to go to college very early the next morning. Tak larat rasanya nak drive from her house to my college dengan my condition macam tu. Went to the doctor for the third time to do blood test..still suspected dengue. The doctor said, "Come again tomorrow." Haaiiihh...... The next day I went to the clinic after class..and Alhamdulillah the blood test result was okie. Then the doctor said, "Esok you tak payah datang dah." Sumpah lega gila!! But still badan rasa letih sangat-sangat.
Today I feel alot better, even my friend said "Harini u nampak active." Mau tak active sampai boleh jalan kat hall way sambil menari, dah macam orang gila pulak kan...hehehe. Hopefully next week and weeks to come will be a great week for me. Amin!
Monday, February 22, 2010
empty
It's been 53days I haven't seen mom, dad and adik. I miss them so damn much. Only god knows. Insyaallah I will see them on this coming July or August..lambat lagi!! =(
I already started my class. Minggu ni minggu ke-2 aku start class. It was okie..so far I enjoying myself there (walaupun benci gila dengan management college..macam HARAM!!). But when I got home, I felt so lonely. My aunt and uncle went to work, so its just me alone at home. Deep down inside I feel so empty and lonely. Every single day I always look forward untuk time bertukar jadi malam pasal by that time my aunt and uncle dah balik dari kerja. This few weeks I spend my time with Jim and his family..it was fun tho. However, that makes me misses my parents and brother even more. Bila aku perhati family Jim bergurau and 'bergaduh' diorang anak-beranak it remind me of my parents and brother and it makes me sad because I miss arguing with adik, talks crap with dad, having a girls conversation with mom. I did tell Jim about how I feel..I'm glad that he will always be there for me. I'm glad that I have my aunt and uncle with me as well. Hurmm...I guess Dd fell sick last year because I left her all alone jugak kot. =( Ooowhh Dd...kesian you.
I love weekends..seriously! I have my aunt and uncle at home with me and I get the chance to spend time with Jim (and his family *wink*)
I know some people may wondering why didn't I go out with my friends..well its because they're all busy. Yes, all! Most of them are in Shah Alam & jauh dari KL..belajar and ada yang kerja. I'm looking forward to meet one of my best friend, tapi tak tahu lah lagi bila dapat jumpa because she's currently busy working. Looking forward to see you Lynn!!
I already started my class. Minggu ni minggu ke-2 aku start class. It was okie..so far I enjoying myself there (walaupun benci gila dengan management college..macam HARAM!!). But when I got home, I felt so lonely. My aunt and uncle went to work, so its just me alone at home. Deep down inside I feel so empty and lonely. Every single day I always look forward untuk time bertukar jadi malam pasal by that time my aunt and uncle dah balik dari kerja. This few weeks I spend my time with Jim and his family..it was fun tho. However, that makes me misses my parents and brother even more. Bila aku perhati family Jim bergurau and 'bergaduh' diorang anak-beranak it remind me of my parents and brother and it makes me sad because I miss arguing with adik, talks crap with dad, having a girls conversation with mom. I did tell Jim about how I feel..I'm glad that he will always be there for me. I'm glad that I have my aunt and uncle with me as well. Hurmm...I guess Dd fell sick last year because I left her all alone jugak kot. =( Ooowhh Dd...kesian you.
I love weekends..seriously! I have my aunt and uncle at home with me and I get the chance to spend time with Jim (and his family *wink*)
I know some people may wondering why didn't I go out with my friends..well its because they're all busy. Yes, all! Most of them are in Shah Alam & jauh dari KL..belajar and ada yang kerja. I'm looking forward to meet one of my best friend, tapi tak tahu lah lagi bila dapat jumpa because she's currently busy working. Looking forward to see you Lynn!!
7 Types of Breakups
I was browsing through the internet and I saw this interesting article about types of breakups (interesting ke??)
Actually, I was thinking since I have experience it many times before, so I wanted to know which type of breakup that I personally have gone through. Here are 7 types of breakup ranked by shortest recovery time to longest recovery time:
1- Mutual Breakup
This is as peaceful a breakup as you can have, like when the entire family agrees it's time to pull the plug on grandpa's respirator: He is freed of his misery, and the family feels a sense of relief. But it can't be that tough to recover from a mutual breakup and get back out in dating scene again.
2- The Circumstantial Breakup
A cousin of the mutual breakup, the circumstantial breakup occurs when the environment around you won't permit the relationship to continue: My family hates you. Recovery time is shortened because the other person offers an excuse that takes the focus off you weaknesses or unattractive qualities that could have caused a breakup.
3- The Ultimatum Breakup
The most common ultimatum leading to a breakup is: Ask me to marry you within the next year of I'm out here. Ultimatum breakups can be tough to get over because it's annoying that a little compromise could have prevented it. But once it's over, that pressure from the stalemate you reached in the relationship is gone, so it's quite a relief.
4- The Something Someone Said Breakup
The writer gave an example about his friend's situation which his friend broke up with his girlfriend he was dating for years, and he mentioned a conversation that occurred shortly before they broke up. They were discussing wedding rings, and she asked how much he'd spend. He simply hasn't studied the "market" so he threw a number out there: "I don't know, $5,000." She scoffed and said: "You should spend no less than $20,000." He told the writer after she said that, he couldn't think of her the same way anymore. In fact, it put a figurative "X" over her image in his eyes. They eventually broke up, and this conversation was the springboard. This type of breakup is painful because you wish you could take something you said or did back.
5- The I've Been Cheating
Whether you find out from them or some other way, it's the ultimate betrayal when they are cheating on you. You can get over it because you dismiss this person as a cheating jerk, but you still feel stupid and you might spend several months envisioning the cheating or trying to regain faith in the opposite gender.
6- The First Love Breakup
The First Love breakup is one of the toughest to overcome. Some say you never get over it. This breakup teaches us that the world is a bigger place than we thought. There are more people to meet, there are places to go. Things just can't stay the same as they once were.
7- The Blind Side
This is traumatic because it comes out of nowhere. The blind sider may have been thinking about it for months, and they conceal their intentions, then drop the bomb while everything seems to be going well. In fact, the couple may have spent time together the night before, but the blind sider did so out of obligation.
Actually, I was thinking since I have experience it many times before, so I wanted to know which type of breakup that I personally have gone through. Here are 7 types of breakup ranked by shortest recovery time to longest recovery time:
1- Mutual Breakup
This is as peaceful a breakup as you can have, like when the entire family agrees it's time to pull the plug on grandpa's respirator: He is freed of his misery, and the family feels a sense of relief. But it can't be that tough to recover from a mutual breakup and get back out in dating scene again.
2- The Circumstantial Breakup
A cousin of the mutual breakup, the circumstantial breakup occurs when the environment around you won't permit the relationship to continue: My family hates you. Recovery time is shortened because the other person offers an excuse that takes the focus off you weaknesses or unattractive qualities that could have caused a breakup.
3- The Ultimatum Breakup
The most common ultimatum leading to a breakup is: Ask me to marry you within the next year of I'm out here. Ultimatum breakups can be tough to get over because it's annoying that a little compromise could have prevented it. But once it's over, that pressure from the stalemate you reached in the relationship is gone, so it's quite a relief.
4- The Something Someone Said Breakup
The writer gave an example about his friend's situation which his friend broke up with his girlfriend he was dating for years, and he mentioned a conversation that occurred shortly before they broke up. They were discussing wedding rings, and she asked how much he'd spend. He simply hasn't studied the "market" so he threw a number out there: "I don't know, $5,000." She scoffed and said: "You should spend no less than $20,000." He told the writer after she said that, he couldn't think of her the same way anymore. In fact, it put a figurative "X" over her image in his eyes. They eventually broke up, and this conversation was the springboard. This type of breakup is painful because you wish you could take something you said or did back.
5- The I've Been Cheating
Whether you find out from them or some other way, it's the ultimate betrayal when they are cheating on you. You can get over it because you dismiss this person as a cheating jerk, but you still feel stupid and you might spend several months envisioning the cheating or trying to regain faith in the opposite gender.
6- The First Love Breakup
The First Love breakup is one of the toughest to overcome. Some say you never get over it. This breakup teaches us that the world is a bigger place than we thought. There are more people to meet, there are places to go. Things just can't stay the same as they once were.
7- The Blind Side
This is traumatic because it comes out of nowhere. The blind sider may have been thinking about it for months, and they conceal their intentions, then drop the bomb while everything seems to be going well. In fact, the couple may have spent time together the night before, but the blind sider did so out of obligation.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
men
Yes..my new post is about men..again. Let me remind you guys that I'm just talking in general..alright? So no hard feeling.
Just now I dunno why all of sudden I was wondering what goes on men's mind after having a huge fight/argument or breakup. Seriously I don't even know why..so please don't bother to ask me okie..? I even ask the same question to my boyfriend. Anyway back to topic, I was wondering do they think about what happen, what went wrong? Do they ever feel regret? I always think that they don't even bother to think about all this, because most of the guys I know don't bother about all this. They seems okie right after the fight or breakup..they have this "everyting is okie" look on their face. Deep down inside, are they okie or do they feel hurt as well?
One more thing that I do noticed is right after the fight they don't even wanna talk about it. Why? Don't they wanna make things work? Don't they wanna share how they actually feels? From my opinion, I think they should let it out and every problem should be solve..right? I mean, if you wanna make it work, u have to talk to each other and figure out what causes the problem and fix it. But I do know some problem bukan senang nak settle, but you just have to try..kan?
Men.....why do they have to be soooo complicated.
Just now I dunno why all of sudden I was wondering what goes on men's mind after having a huge fight/argument or breakup. Seriously I don't even know why..so please don't bother to ask me okie..? I even ask the same question to my boyfriend. Anyway back to topic, I was wondering do they think about what happen, what went wrong? Do they ever feel regret? I always think that they don't even bother to think about all this, because most of the guys I know don't bother about all this. They seems okie right after the fight or breakup..they have this "everyting is okie" look on their face. Deep down inside, are they okie or do they feel hurt as well?
One more thing that I do noticed is right after the fight they don't even wanna talk about it. Why? Don't they wanna make things work? Don't they wanna share how they actually feels? From my opinion, I think they should let it out and every problem should be solve..right? I mean, if you wanna make it work, u have to talk to each other and figure out what causes the problem and fix it. But I do know some problem bukan senang nak settle, but you just have to try..kan?
Men.....why do they have to be soooo complicated.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
reasons why guys always cheat
A friend of mine told me that her boyfriend is having an affair. I'm not surprise because he's quite handsome for a typical Malay guy. Well, she's not the only person having this kind of problem, banyak lagi perempuan ada masalah macam ni (including myself..with my ex). Whether a man is good looking or not, I just don't understand, why would they having an affair? Ada lelaki untung dapat girlfriend yang cantik, smart, baik buruk tu tak tahu la nak cakap (u guys should know better pasal partner korang)..but as far as I know the girl is being loyal to the guy. Apa lagi yang tak cukup??? If you're not happy with your partner, just tell them straight away that you're not happy and figure it out together how to make things work..if it doesn't work jugak then breakup jela. Bagi lelaki yang dapat girlfriend yang perangai dia macam haram tu, tak payah la cakap banyak..cari je yang lain..banyak lagi bunga kat luar tu..ceywahh!! =p
If you guys notice..cheating seems a new trend..it seems like if you don't do it, it ain't cool. Here are the possible reasons why guys always cheat....
If you guys notice..cheating seems a new trend..it seems like if you don't do it, it ain't cool. Here are the possible reasons why guys always cheat....
- They are not ready to have commitments.
- They no longer feel satisfied/stimulated in their current relationship and are too cowardly to end the relationship
- They like various sex partners.
- They crave the initial excitement and illicitness of a "secret" affair.
- Men are single-minded and don't think about the consequences of their actions.
- Some men cheat because they think they can get by with it.
- Some cheat because they don't take their relationships seriously.
- Guys cheat because many of them increasingly feel powerless in a society that is giving women more rights & powers in the domestic & public spheres.
- Men stray outside of long-term relationships to remember what it was like to be desirable and free. "Schedules" and routine destroy self image.
- Having sex with more than one woman is an ego boost for those with low self-esteem.
- Men cheat because they are bored in their current relationship.
- Lack of or poor communication with the spouse/girlfriend can lead a man to cheat.
- Other people are something new and different.
- You have no old baggage with someone new.
- Maybe they want something with ''no strings''
- Different people have different likes and dislikes.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Goodbye Middle East.........
..............................HELLO MALAYSIA!!!
Finally, on the 10th December I came back to Malaysia. I've been staying in Middle East for almost 5 month. It's been great..I had a great time there with my family. Unfortunately, I didn't make any new friends..orang unta are very arrogant. SERIOUSLY!!!
The first day I got here the weather is quite hot but surprisingly I feel okie and didn't complain about it. The next day it starts to rain. Ooowhh hujan..lama tak rasa suasana hujan. I thought I was the only person missing the rain season, bapak ku pun sama rupanya..siap mandi hujan..2 DAYS IN A ROW!!! Mom was so angry (not literally..membebel jugak la). After a week he fell sick..hehe. I've got lots of things to do this whole month and I have no time to go out with my friends =/ sorry guys..its not that I don't want to, but I'm seriously busy + my parents are here for only 3 weeks so I wanted to spend time with them..I will see you guys next year okie..? =)
Few days ago I went to ***** College to register myself in. To be honest, I don't know how I really feel with the idea of going back to college..because..........I've been on holiday for 9 MONTH. Tulah cuti paling lama saya ambil dalam seumur hidup saya. Kalau pregnant dah beranak dah kn? I didn't plan to take a break that long, it just happen. Panjang cerita dia. At first I'm quite excited to start class but when the time has come, part of me feel excited & nervous (al maklumlah orang dah lama sangat cuti, jadi excited & nervous lah nak start balik class) and part of me not really excited about it...macam mana tu? *sigh*
Well, it's already 12.24 a.m. and I'm quite sleepy..will update my blog when I have free time..good night guys!!
Finally, on the 10th December I came back to Malaysia. I've been staying in Middle East for almost 5 month. It's been great..I had a great time there with my family. Unfortunately, I didn't make any new friends..orang unta are very arrogant. SERIOUSLY!!!
The first day I got here the weather is quite hot but surprisingly I feel okie and didn't complain about it. The next day it starts to rain. Ooowhh hujan..lama tak rasa suasana hujan. I thought I was the only person missing the rain season, bapak ku pun sama rupanya..siap mandi hujan..2 DAYS IN A ROW!!! Mom was so angry (not literally..membebel jugak la). After a week he fell sick..hehe. I've got lots of things to do this whole month and I have no time to go out with my friends =/ sorry guys..its not that I don't want to, but I'm seriously busy + my parents are here for only 3 weeks so I wanted to spend time with them..I will see you guys next year okie..? =)
Few days ago I went to ***** College to register myself in. To be honest, I don't know how I really feel with the idea of going back to college..because..........I've been on holiday for 9 MONTH. Tulah cuti paling lama saya ambil dalam seumur hidup saya. Kalau pregnant dah beranak dah kn? I didn't plan to take a break that long, it just happen. Panjang cerita dia. At first I'm quite excited to start class but when the time has come, part of me feel excited & nervous (al maklumlah orang dah lama sangat cuti, jadi excited & nervous lah nak start balik class) and part of me not really excited about it...macam mana tu? *sigh*
Well, it's already 12.24 a.m. and I'm quite sleepy..will update my blog when I have free time..good night guys!!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Back In Action.......?
It's been a while I didn't write my blog. Something happened, and I've been trying to get back on writing and posting ever since. But, as usual I just don't know where to start.
Today, me and my mom were supposed to go to the mall...mother and daughter bonding time =p Unfortunately, I'm not feeling well this few days...slightly fever and sore throat (paling teruk and it's killing me!!) Jadi terpaksa ditundakan ke weekend...ceyh!!!
Summer is coming to an end. Now I don't have to worry about my skin getting burn...lol. Ever since I got here, my skin is getting dry and I started to have pimples...again! Aaarrgghh!!! I seriously need a facial treatment right now. Can't wait to go back to Malaysia and make an appointment for facial. Oh, not to forget, food!! Ya Allah..I've been craving almost everything this past few month..lol. I told my parents, bf and few friends that when I'm back I wanna eat everything that I've been craving for. I may be skinny, but I eat a lot (well, it actually depends on my mood jugak).
Omg!! I totally forgot to take my medicine..shit!! No wonder I'm not feeling drowsy =p I already take my medicine and now it's time for me to go to sleep. Good night ya'll!!!
Today, me and my mom were supposed to go to the mall...mother and daughter bonding time =p Unfortunately, I'm not feeling well this few days...slightly fever and sore throat (paling teruk and it's killing me!!) Jadi terpaksa ditundakan ke weekend...ceyh!!!
Summer is coming to an end. Now I don't have to worry about my skin getting burn...lol. Ever since I got here, my skin is getting dry and I started to have pimples...again! Aaarrgghh!!! I seriously need a facial treatment right now. Can't wait to go back to Malaysia and make an appointment for facial. Oh, not to forget, food!! Ya Allah..I've been craving almost everything this past few month..lol. I told my parents, bf and few friends that when I'm back I wanna eat everything that I've been craving for. I may be skinny, but I eat a lot (well, it actually depends on my mood jugak).
Omg!! I totally forgot to take my medicine..shit!! No wonder I'm not feeling drowsy =p I already take my medicine and now it's time for me to go to sleep. Good night ya'll!!!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
22 Ways To Make A Girl Smile
1. Tell her she is beautiful (not fine, or sexy)
2. Hold her hand at any moment ...even if its just for a second.
3. Kiss her on the forehead.
4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5. When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
6. Recognize the small things....they usually mean the most.
7. Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.
8. Write her notes (she loves them)
9. Introduce her to family and friends....as your girlfriend.
10. Play with her hair.
11. Pick her up, tickle her, and play-wrestle with her.
12. Sit in the park and just talk to her.
13. Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, or just tell her jokes.
14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.
16. Give her piggyback rides.
17. Bring her flowers
18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.
19. Look her in the eyes and smile.
20. Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
21. Kiss her in the rain.
22. If you're in love with her...tell her.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
raya in Middle East
Hey guys... How was everyone's raya? I bet mesti best gila...well, mine is SUCKS!! I tell you why...this year is my first raya di negara orang. I used to love raya so damn much and this is the first time ever I said my raya celebration was sucks and I hate it. I thought I might cry pagi raya because my grandparents, my aunt, uncle and cousins are not here with us...surprisingly, I don't. I don't even know why..lol. Mungkin sebab I know that I will be back end of this year or early of 2010..mesti akan jumpa semua orang punya...can't wait!! Apa-apa pun I'm very thankful that I still have my family with me. Lagipun my mother dah nekad nak balik raya kat Malaysia tahun depan. Thank God she finally comes to her senses..lol
Raya kat Middle East ni tak ada la best mana pun..pasal org arab ni semua tak celebrate Aidilfitri besar-besaran macam kita kat Malaysia. Tapi dapat jugak la kitorg makan makanan raya pasal my mother masa kuah kacang, rendang and nasi impit..ketupat (my favorite) and lemang je tak ada =( Although I don't like lemang tapi hari raya kalau tak ada lemang tu macam tak complete..am I right? Around tengah hari, kawan my mother datang rumah beraya. She's an egyptian..dia datang the whole family..and dia bawak kuih raya orang arab. Dapat la merasa..kalau nak beli mahal gila okie! 1kg can cost you around 100++ Riyal..can u imagine how expensive it is? 1kg boleh dapat berapa ketul la sangat. Gila!!
Petang raya kitorg pegi rumah kawan my parents. It was okie lah..bosan jugak actually..hehe..since semua nya orang tua and kids, tak ada budak yang around my age pun =( tak dapat la nak buat kawan pun. Raya di rumah Malaysian kat sini bukan nya dapat duit raya pun..huhuh..kedekut!! Even my brother yang kecik ni pun tak dapat duit raya. Pasal orang arab kalau beraya memang tak bagi duit raya pun..agak nya diorg ikut style orang sini kot. Apa-apa pun I just can't wait to celebrate raya next year kat Malaysia..balik kampung!!! Yeay!!! So here are the pictures on first day of raya...ada banyak lagi but I'm too lazy nak upload semua.
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