its happening..again.

It's been a hell of a week for me. Nooo...it's not about my classes. This semester went very well. This time, its something personal. Nooo...its not a family matters.

It all started on the 1st of July and last Sunday. On the 1st July, this p***a is making me feel all guilty and uneasy with the whole situation. I'm really pissed with what happened. Oh my God!! I really hate this guy. Suddenly I feel like he's taking advantage on this person. This person means alot to me. I love her and care for her so much. "Only God knows how much I love you."

However, last Sunday I posted something on my facebook status, and from the look of her face, I knew she is really pissed. I don't feel regret or guilty posting it, but I feel sad and hurt. I was just trying to make her realize that she's making a mistake for being with this guy. The most shocking part is, she's like a different person now. She's totally ignoring me for someone that is not related to her. I dunno what's on her mind actually. I just don't want her to get hurt, that's all. She probably think I'm jealous or something. Oh please!! I am not!! "I just want you to be happy and be with a better person..seriously, you deserve better."

Anyway, this p***a I'm talking about, already have a girlfriend and yes, my dear friend knows that her so-called-boyfriend is taken. She once told me that this guy makes her happy and not a hypocrite. Just because he's being honest with you that he has a girlfriend, doesn't mean he's a good and honest guy. Let just say he dumb he's girlfriend just to be with you, he can still did the same thing to you for another girl..right? I just hope one day she will realize it..or may be not??? They are the 'on and off couple'...for 3 4 times kot..if I'm not mistaken. Don't you get tired?????? 3 4 times break up and make up?? Tak penat ke???? This kind of relationship will never work and will never last.

It's been 5days already, still we haven't spoke to each other. Although we rarely spend time with each other, but we always there for each other. I really miss her so much. I feel so sad and empty. I hope things will go back to the way it was.