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Happy Anniversary

When I first met you all those years ago, 

I fell in love so fast, I knew right then,

You were the one and only one for me,

I'd never have to look for love again.

Each anniversary finds us happier,

You are my light, my moon, my star, my sun.

You show me what real love is all about,

You fill my life with pleasure, joy and fun.

As time goes by, our love grows stronger still,

You're the most amazing man I ever knew,

I prize our anniversaries because

each year I fall in love again with you.

oh how exciting!!

September is around the corner..yeay!!! My parents are coming back to Malaysia early of next month for Hari Raya Aidilfitri..how exciting!! We haven't seen each other for 8months. My house (its actually their house) gonna be really messy with they hugeeeee (i mean really huge) luggage, kekecohan confirm akan melanda and I'm definitely gonna have a very very very busy schedule besides going to class..since my new semester starts on the week of raya, how sad!! *sigh* Tak sabarnya nak jumpa diorang & balik kampung!!! Oh and I'm looking forward for mom or dad to send to me college..hehe..terasa macam budak sekolah pergi balik ada orang hantar and tak payah la susah payah cari parking dalam campus tu for a month. *jumping up & down*

My grandparents are in KL (since 2days before puasa) and this weekend they're going back to kampung, since raya dah nak dekat..diorang balik awal sebab nak buat preparation for raya since all of us nak balik raya kat kampung..yeay!! I know I sound so damn excited macam orang tak pernah balik kampung..mana tak nya, last year raya kat Middle East, ni lah jadinya. Even mom sounds excited..well dia tak ada lah tunjuk how excited she is like I do..but I know that she is because macam-macam kuih and cake she ordered, she even plan to have BBQ at my grandparents house and invited semua sedara-mara yang ada kat sana.

Salam Ramadhan

its happening..again.

It's been a hell of a week for me. Nooo...it's not about my classes. This semester went very well. This time, its something personal. Nooo...its not a family matters.

It all started on the 1st of July and last Sunday. On the 1st July, this p***a is making me feel all guilty and uneasy with the whole situation. I'm really pissed with what happened. Oh my God!! I really hate this guy. Suddenly I feel like he's taking advantage on this person. This person means alot to me. I love her and care for her so much. "Only God knows how much I love you."

However, last Sunday I posted something on my facebook status, and from the look of her face, I knew she is really pissed. I don't feel regret or guilty posting it, but I feel sad and hurt. I was just trying to make her realize that she's making a mistake for being with this guy. The most shocking part is, she's like a different person now. She's totally ignoring me for someone that is not related to her. I dunno what's on her mind actually. I just don't want her to get hurt, that's all. She probably think I'm jealous or something. Oh please!! I am not!! "I just want you to be happy and be with a better person..seriously, you deserve better."

Anyway, this p***a I'm talking about, already have a girlfriend and yes, my dear friend knows that her so-called-boyfriend is taken. She once told me that this guy makes her happy and not a hypocrite. Just because he's being honest with you that he has a girlfriend, doesn't mean he's a good and honest guy. Let just say he dumb he's girlfriend just to be with you, he can still did the same thing to you for another girl..right? I just hope one day she will realize it..or may be not??? They are the 'on and off couple'...for 3 4 times kot..if I'm not mistaken. Don't you get tired?????? 3 4 times break up and make up?? Tak penat ke???? This kind of relationship will never work and will never last.

It's been 5days already, still we haven't spoke to each other. Although we rarely spend time with each other, but we always there for each other. I really miss her so much. I feel so sad and empty. I hope things will go back to the way it was.

twenty three

On 9th July I've turned 23 years old. Damn!! 23 eyk?

Anyway, on my birthday my boyfriend took me out for dinner at Victoria Station in Ampang. Sorry guys, no pictures..yang ada pun muka dia je. Gambar birthday girl is in his BB. It was a lovely dinner. Thank you so much sayang!!

On the 10th I had dinner with my 2 friends and my boyfriend. It supposed to be 7 of us, but 3 of them can't make it. *sob sob* We had dinner at Tupai-Tupai. We had steamboat, since budak-budak ni semua nak makan steamboat and Nadia said the steamboat memang best. And guess what? Tak best langsung!!!! The place was okie la, ala ala kampung style, but the service is really bad. Kelam kabut gila waitress and waiter kat situ. The food? From the scale 1-10, I'll give them 3. Makanan situ tak banyak choice if you compare it to Johnny's. The soup pun tak berapa sedap, tapi yang peliknya ramai orang. If you did not make a reservation, senang cerita, balik sudeyh!! =p  I told my friends, after this if you guys wanna have steamboat, just go to Johnny's. Puas hati and perut. Oh I almost forgot, the worst part makan kat situ is, lantai restaurant tu made of wood, so whenever people walks by (kalau dia jalan macam giant) or run, kita pun terhenjut-henjut. There's one time, i yelled at this one boy because he keeps on running back and forth. Okie, I know I sound really mean, but hey aku nak makan. Its not a playground you stupid!!  Apa-apa pun thank you so much korang for planning all this and the gift.

Harini pulak, I went out for lunch with my aunt. We had italian food. Sedap!!! Thank you so much Dd. Now, I just can't wait for my parents and brother to come back to Malaysia. Counting days..counting days...... =)

MOMMY.........................

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!

='(

life

It's been a hell of 2weeks I tell ya'll.

I was sick for almost 2weeks, really sick I tell you..but still I managed to go to class.  Jim kata "You ni nak tunjuk kuat sangat"...haaiih la sang boyfriend, kalau ikut hati nak je mc for 3days tapi kerja banyak sangat..I have no choice.  The first 3days sakit, I went to the doctor, didn't get mc because the doctor said I'm fine.  Few days later I felt so uncomfortable, my head and my eyes hurt really bad and I felt really tired.  My body just can't take it anymore.  Went to the doctor again (same clinic, different doctor), the doctor check my blood pressure and do blood test...and said he suspected that I might have dengue.  The doctor said I have to come again to do blood test.

Ya Allah!! Rasa frust pun ada, nak marah pun ada, nak menangis pun ada..I have alot of assignments to do and he's telling me that I might have dengue?!!  The worst part is my parents and my aunt was not around..my parents is in Middle East, my aunt was in Penang outstation.  At that time I felt like going to the airport buy the next ticket to Middle East or Penang.  But I'm so touched and thankful that I have Jim's mom masa tu.  She's a mother kan, so she's being so nice and caring..she offered me to stay at her place so that dia boleh tengok-tengokkan...but unfortunately I can't stay at her place because I have to go to college very early the next morning.  Tak larat rasanya nak drive from her house to my college dengan my condition macam tu.  Went to the doctor for the third time to do blood test..still suspected dengue.  The doctor said, "Come again tomorrow." Haaiiihh...... The next day I went to the clinic after class..and Alhamdulillah the blood test result was okie.  Then the doctor said, "Esok you tak payah datang dah." Sumpah lega gila!! But still badan rasa letih sangat-sangat.

Today I feel alot better, even my friend said "Harini u nampak active."  Mau tak active sampai boleh jalan kat hall way sambil menari, dah macam orang gila pulak kan...hehehe.  Hopefully next week and weeks to come will be a great week for me.  Amin!

empty

It's been 53days I haven't seen mom, dad and adik. I miss them so damn much. Only god knows. Insyaallah I will see them on this coming July or August..lambat lagi!! =(

I already started my class. Minggu ni minggu ke-2 aku start class. It was okie..so far I enjoying myself there (walaupun benci gila dengan management college..macam HARAM!!). But when I got home, I felt so lonely. My aunt and uncle went to work, so its just me alone at home. Deep down inside I feel so empty and lonely. Every single day I always look forward untuk time bertukar jadi malam pasal by that time my aunt and uncle dah balik dari  kerja. This few weeks I spend my time with Jim and his family..it was fun tho. However, that makes me misses my parents and brother even more. Bila aku perhati family Jim bergurau and 'bergaduh' diorang anak-beranak it remind me of my parents and brother and it makes me sad because I miss arguing with adik, talks crap with dad, having a girls conversation with mom. I did tell Jim about how I feel..I'm glad that he will always be there for me. I'm glad that I have my aunt and uncle with me as well. Hurmm...I guess Dd fell sick last year because I left her all alone jugak kot. =(  Ooowhh Dd...kesian you.

I love weekends..seriously! I have my aunt and uncle at home with me and I get the chance to spend time with Jim (and his family *wink*)

I know some people may wondering why didn't I go out with my friends..well its because they're all busy. Yes, all! Most of them are in Shah Alam & jauh dari KL..belajar and ada yang kerja. I'm looking forward to meet one of my best friend, tapi tak tahu lah lagi bila dapat jumpa because she's currently busy working. Looking forward to see you Lynn!!

7 Types of Breakups

I was browsing through the internet and I saw this interesting article about types of breakups (interesting ke??)
Actually, I was thinking since I have experience it many times before, so I wanted to know which type of breakup that I personally have gone through. Here are 7 types of breakup ranked by shortest recovery time to longest recovery time:

1- Mutual Breakup
This is as peaceful a breakup as you can have, like when the entire family agrees it's time to pull the plug on grandpa's respirator: He is freed of his misery, and the family feels a sense of relief. But it can't be that tough to recover from a mutual breakup and get back out in dating scene again.
2- The Circumstantial Breakup
A cousin of the mutual breakup, the circumstantial breakup occurs when the environment around you won't permit the relationship to continue: My family hates you. Recovery time is shortened because the other person offers an excuse that takes the focus off you weaknesses or unattractive qualities that could have caused a breakup.
3- The Ultimatum Breakup
The most common ultimatum leading to a breakup is: Ask me to marry you within the next year of I'm out here. Ultimatum breakups can be tough to get over because it's annoying that a little compromise could have prevented it. But once it's over, that pressure from the stalemate you reached in the relationship is gone, so it's quite a relief.
4- The Something Someone Said Breakup
The writer gave an example about his friend's situation which his friend broke up with his girlfriend he was dating for years, and he mentioned a conversation that occurred shortly before they broke up. They were discussing wedding rings, and she asked how much he'd spend. He simply hasn't studied the "market" so he threw a number out there: "I don't know, $5,000." She scoffed and said: "You should spend no less than $20,000." He told the writer after she said that, he couldn't think of her the same way anymore. In fact, it put a figurative "X" over her image in his eyes. They eventually broke up, and this conversation was the springboard. This type of breakup is painful because you wish you could take something you said or did back.
5- The I've Been Cheating
Whether you find out from them or some other way, it's the ultimate betrayal when they are cheating on you. You can get over it because you dismiss this person as a cheating jerk, but you still feel stupid and you might spend several months envisioning the cheating or trying to regain faith in the opposite gender.
6- The First Love Breakup
The First Love breakup is one of the toughest to overcome. Some say you never get over it. This breakup teaches us that the world is a bigger place than we thought. There are more people to meet, there are places to go. Things just can't stay the same as they once were.
7- The Blind Side
This is traumatic because it comes out of nowhere. The blind sider may have been thinking about it for months, and they conceal their intentions, then drop the bomb while everything seems to be going well. In fact, the couple may have spent time together the night before, but the blind sider did so out of obligation.