confession

You probably not interested in reading my blog, but I just wanna say...................

I love piercings

Yes, I love piercing. You have problem with that? That's your problem, I don't give a damn. I've always loved the way piercing looked on people. The first thing I pierced was my belly. Was it painful? A little bit, because orang yang buat piercing tu didn't use that special spray to make my skin numb. And I'm loving it. Its hard for me to describe how I actually feel, but perkataan paling sesuai nak guna adalah PUAS. I don't think people would understand, but I think orang yang pernah pierce or enjoy doing it mesti paham. My parents have no problem with it as long as I don't pierce it every where (if you know what I mean)..lol. Unfortunately, the boyfriend hate it and not being supportive..bluergh!!! I always hoping that he will change his mind, but now we've been together for 5years tak pernah sekali pun dia berubah fikiran. I feel sorry for my kids..lol. If my kids are like their mother (enjoy piercing) and have him as their father, memang harapan lah nak dapat merasa ni semua..lol. The reason he wont let me pierce is because he hates it (he said its ugly), he doesn't wanna see me in pain and he doesn't want to 'hurt' me. Hurmm....his last reason does makes sense since kitorang (me,him and his little sister) kalau bergurau memang sangat kasar =/

                                 

will you be that 'someone'? can you be that 'someone'?

watch your mouth young lady!!

Today, I said something that I've shouldn't said and I actually hurt this person's feeling which I seriously didn't mean to do so. I totally take it literally by what this person had said to me. The blame is on me. It was my fault. I think too much, I worried too much (its all based from personal experience..well actually other people punya experience,someone very close to me). I'm just worried that the same thing might happen to me. I shouldn't be thinking that way, I should have known it better. Why can't I just let it go with the flow? Why can't I learn to accept it as it is and let the nature take its course? Why am I making it complicated? I blame myself for what just happened, and I also blame this one guy (you can keep on guessing but I still wont tell you guys who the guy is, what's our connection, etc.) Whatever it is, I hope this person will forgive me (I know this person already forgive me but doubt dia akan forget) and I hope our friendship will always remain the same. Much ♥

I love you, and.....

                                  I LOVE DOING MANICURE. 

Happy Anniversary

When I first met you all those years ago, 

I fell in love so fast, I knew right then,

You were the one and only one for me,

I'd never have to look for love again.

Each anniversary finds us happier,

You are my light, my moon, my star, my sun.

You show me what real love is all about,

You fill my life with pleasure, joy and fun.

As time goes by, our love grows stronger still,

You're the most amazing man I ever knew,

I prize our anniversaries because

each year I fall in love again with you.

oh how exciting!!

September is around the corner..yeay!!! My parents are coming back to Malaysia early of next month for Hari Raya Aidilfitri..how exciting!! We haven't seen each other for 8months. My house (its actually their house) gonna be really messy with they hugeeeee (i mean really huge) luggage, kekecohan confirm akan melanda and I'm definitely gonna have a very very very busy schedule besides going to class..since my new semester starts on the week of raya, how sad!! *sigh* Tak sabarnya nak jumpa diorang & balik kampung!!! Oh and I'm looking forward for mom or dad to send to me college..hehe..terasa macam budak sekolah pergi balik ada orang hantar and tak payah la susah payah cari parking dalam campus tu for a month. *jumping up & down*

My grandparents are in KL (since 2days before puasa) and this weekend they're going back to kampung, since raya dah nak dekat..diorang balik awal sebab nak buat preparation for raya since all of us nak balik raya kat kampung..yeay!! I know I sound so damn excited macam orang tak pernah balik kampung..mana tak nya, last year raya kat Middle East, ni lah jadinya. Even mom sounds excited..well dia tak ada lah tunjuk how excited she is like I do..but I know that she is because macam-macam kuih and cake she ordered, she even plan to have BBQ at my grandparents house and invited semua sedara-mara yang ada kat sana.

Salam Ramadhan

its happening..again.

It's been a hell of a week for me. Nooo...it's not about my classes. This semester went very well. This time, its something personal. Nooo...its not a family matters.

It all started on the 1st of July and last Sunday. On the 1st July, this p***a is making me feel all guilty and uneasy with the whole situation. I'm really pissed with what happened. Oh my God!! I really hate this guy. Suddenly I feel like he's taking advantage on this person. This person means alot to me. I love her and care for her so much. "Only God knows how much I love you."

However, last Sunday I posted something on my facebook status, and from the look of her face, I knew she is really pissed. I don't feel regret or guilty posting it, but I feel sad and hurt. I was just trying to make her realize that she's making a mistake for being with this guy. The most shocking part is, she's like a different person now. She's totally ignoring me for someone that is not related to her. I dunno what's on her mind actually. I just don't want her to get hurt, that's all. She probably think I'm jealous or something. Oh please!! I am not!! "I just want you to be happy and be with a better person..seriously, you deserve better."

Anyway, this p***a I'm talking about, already have a girlfriend and yes, my dear friend knows that her so-called-boyfriend is taken. She once told me that this guy makes her happy and not a hypocrite. Just because he's being honest with you that he has a girlfriend, doesn't mean he's a good and honest guy. Let just say he dumb he's girlfriend just to be with you, he can still did the same thing to you for another girl..right? I just hope one day she will realize it..or may be not??? They are the 'on and off couple'...for 3 4 times kot..if I'm not mistaken. Don't you get tired?????? 3 4 times break up and make up?? Tak penat ke???? This kind of relationship will never work and will never last.

It's been 5days already, still we haven't spoke to each other. Although we rarely spend time with each other, but we always there for each other. I really miss her so much. I feel so sad and empty. I hope things will go back to the way it was.