Nobody's Perfect

When I'm nervous I have this thing, yeah, I talk too much
Sometimes I just can't shut the hell up
It's like I need to tell someone, anyone who'll listen
And that's where I seem to fuck up
Yeah, I forget about the consequences
For a minute there I lose my senses
And in the heat of the moment my mouth starts going
The words start flowing, oh

But I never meant to hurt you
I know it's time that I learned to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learned
I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around

'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah

And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobody's perfect, no

If I could turn back the hands of time
I swear I never would've crossed that line
I should of kept it between us
But, no, I went and told the whole world how I feel and oh
So I sit and I realize
With these tears falling from my eyes
I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever
I promise that I'm gonna try

But I never meant to hurt you
I know it's time that I learned to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learned
I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah
And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobody's perfect

I'm not a saint, no, not at all, but what I did, it wasn't cool
But I swear that I'll never do that again to you, oh
I'm not a saint, no, not at all, but what I did, it wasn't cool
But I swear that I'll never do that again to you, yeah

I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah

And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect, no
I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah
And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect, yeah, yeah, whoa

Don't tell me, don't tell
Don't tell me you can't forgive me
No, no, no, no
'Cause nobody's perfect, no

baby daddy

Aaawwww....aren't they adorable? I'm totally in love with Cam Gigandet the first time I saw him in Twillight.

He's hot!!! And he looks even hotter in this picture. Would like to have this kind of guy to be my baby daddy. Come on, look at him...definitely a good father, probably a good husband/boyfriend (dunno whether he's married or not)..I mean he's willing to help his wife/girlfriend to babysit their child..right? lol =p 

It may not be a big deal to you people but I find it hard to find a guy that willing to help their spouse to babysit their own child, wake up middle of the night to feed the baby, change diapers, etc... Seriously susah!!

I really hope I get a good husband that willing to help me taking care of the baby, wash their poo poo, wake up middle of the night to feed the baby when I'm too tired to wake up, etc =)

Is it true that......

Rescuing Hug

Twin girls, Brielle and Kyrie, were born 12 weeks ahead of their due date. Needing intensive care, they were placed in separate incubators.

Kyrie began to gain weight and her health stabilized. But Brielle, born only 2 lbs, had trouble breathing, heart problems and other complications. She was not expected to live.
Their nurse did everything she could to make Brielle’s health better, but nothing she did was helping her. With nothing else to do, their nurse went against hospital policy and decided to place both babies in the same incubator.

She left the twin girls to sleep and when when she returned she found a sight she could not believe. She called all the nurses and doctors and this is what they saw (refer to the picture above).

As Brielle got closer to her sister, Kyrie put her small little arm around her, as if to hug and support her sister. From that moment on, Brielle’s breathing and heart rate stabilized and her health became normal.

From then on, they decided to keep both babies together, because when they were together they kept each other alive.


(source: my cousin's blog)

BB freaks!

I have to admit that I am a BlackBerry Freaks. The day my dad bought me my first hand-phone, it has been stuck with me or should I say glued in my hand 24/7. I just can't stop texting and replying every SMS that I get from my friends (itu dulu...hehe..).

Can you imagine how 'bad' it is now? I feel like I've been hypnotize by the BB..LOL. Ever since I'm using BB, I just can't stop playing around with it. I will go through the application world and try to find whatever applications that caught my eyes and download 'em. I have to say BB is FUN!! Its the best phone ever!! You can always on your Facebook, Twitter, BBM, YM, MSN, download new themes or games, etc. My BB is always in my hand even though I have no SMS, BBM or tweets to reply. I would go completely nuts if I don't have my BB with me or if the battery running dry.

I'm not the only one got hypnotize by BB, my boyfriend too. Whenever we see each other, there will ALWAYS be a time where we totally ignore each other because we are too busy playing with our BB. Oh and not to forget, he will always make me talk to myself. I will go "sayang, bla bla bla...." then he'll say "huh? what? what did you say? sorry I tak dengar." Sometimes I seriously feel like I wanna smack him. SERIOUSLY.

Now you see how BB has take over my life..oh and his life too..LOL.

Hello Hello...it's May!!!

Wow, its already May? How time flies so fast.

Hello guys... So I've been MIA for 2months & 1day, and no I didn't count, I just realized that my last post was on March 14th and today is May 15th..so yes its 2months & 1day..ngee =D

So many things have happened.......

Grandma is here!! She's been here since May 3rd with grandpa, but grandpa have to go back 2days after that because he got work to do. No, he's not working. Ada lah projek dia, hehehe.

My semester break just started 2days ago..yeay!!! I'm glad it is over. It was one hell of a semester. I've been struggled to complete my proposal for my thesis. Its not that hard actually, but the lecturer is making it really hard on us. ALL OF US. The other 2subjects are a lot harder..man, I'm glad that I'm still alive..LOL.

End of this month my boyfriend and I are going for holiday with his friends and the girls. I'm sooo excited!!!!!!! It's gonna be fun, fun, fun!!!!!!!

Last Thursday (May 12th, 2011) someone and her gang has created a drama. Well, that shows that someone is soo bloody bored with her life. Yelah, she's been married for years, jobless with no kids, only her laptop, siblings and her mother as her bestfriend. She doesn't know the truth behind the whole situation, and yet she's making her own conclusion and bash people in Facebook. The rest of her gang pun kesian, all they do is work work work, the other one is work work work, being a slut slut slut.  You and your gang seriously don't have the guts to come straight to people and tell them right in the face kan? Cakap belakang pandai. She finally know the real story, then what happen? Senyap. Malu kan bila main assumed je? I bet she go and tell the whole gang that the other person called her and confronted her. But somehow I got a feeling she wont be telling the whole story, she probably tukar-tukar sikit, yelah takkan nak memalukan diri sendiri cerita kat orang dia kena maki ye tak? Grow up people!!! Dah tua, kubur dah panggil mari, act like a grown up will ya?!! Otak jangan letak kat bontot boleh? Kata graduate in US lah bagai with a successful career, being a rich house wife and  a high-class waitress..then guna lah otak tu sikit. Its okie, what goes around comes around right? Allah tu Maha Besar. I saw someone post this quote in Twitter, says "There's no need for revenge. Those who hurt you will eventually screw up themselves and if you're lucky, God will let you watch." Yes oh yes, I'm 110% agree with it. Let Allah do His job.

What the hell is this?!! A clothes or spider webs? I love fashion, but this is just........ugly, ridiculous, inappropriate and weird. All blend in one.

Don't

Don't try to change me.
Because someday I will change.
People change.
I'm still young.
I just wanna live my life to the fullest.
Let me do what ever I want, as long as I don't cross the line.
Let me be myself.
Don't try to change me.
Don't tell me what I can and can't do.
Don't try to change my style, how I dress up.
Don't try to change me to become someone who I am not.
Don't.
This is who I am from the beginning, this is who I will always be.
But I do believe in changes.
When the time has come, I will definitely change.
Definitely.

am i ready?

It all started in 2009. I was in Middle East. Love the country, but.....ah, nevermind. Anyway, in Middle East (depends on what country are you) all female must wear hijab. ITS A MUST. They look so beautiful, the arbaya..masya'allah!! Jangan dikenang. Gorgeous!! The minute I landed in that country, I was surrounded with all the local people (duh, obviously!), they're all wearing arbaya and hijab..and so, I fell in love with the arbaya. I told myself that one day when I'm ready I wanna wear exactly like that. I went nuts every time I saw arbaya boutique. Mummy and daddy bought me arbaya and recently Jim's mum bought me one from Mekkah  =) sangat happy okie!!

So back to the title. Damn! This is hard for me to say. Okie...*take a deep breath* Since end of last year, I can't stop asking myself when am I going to cover up and I can't stop looking at shawls. I have no idea how or why all of the sudden hati tu terdetik sampai macam tu sekali. At the same time I ask myself, "Are you ready Tarra? Or is it just a hunch? Because a hunch is not good enough. You will end up bukak tutup bukak tutup just like others". I hate to say this but its true. Now days ramai perempuan suka pakai bukak pakai bukak tudung..I'm not saying semua but kebanyakkan. Get what I'm saying? I don't wanna be like them. Hell no!! Kalau dah tutup, means tutup terus. I've told my mum about it, she said she'll be happy if I'm ready to cover up and she even remind me not to take it off if I decide to wear hijab. Hurmmm....I feel like telling my boyfriend about this, actually I was about to tell him yesterday during our lunch..but, saya segan. LOL...pelikkan? Benda ni pun nak segan. I dunno. Takut dia terkejut beruk pulak..LOL. Haih...Ya Allah..tak tahu lah =/

Until now I still don't have the answer. I'm still in the stage of confusion. I don't know what I actually feel. I'm still searching for the answer. I hope one day Allah SWT will give me the answer to my question. Amin.

Wait..why the hell did I start writing about this??? Haih..bosan ke apa ni? Hurmm...tak apa lah, dah tulis panjang-panjang baru sekarang nak realized. Oh well, its not like there are people reading my blog..kan? =p