BB freaks!

I have to admit that I am a BlackBerry Freaks. The day my dad bought me my first hand-phone, it has been stuck with me or should I say glued in my hand 24/7. I just can't stop texting and replying every SMS that I get from my friends (itu dulu...hehe..).

Can you imagine how 'bad' it is now? I feel like I've been hypnotize by the BB..LOL. Ever since I'm using BB, I just can't stop playing around with it. I will go through the application world and try to find whatever applications that caught my eyes and download 'em. I have to say BB is FUN!! Its the best phone ever!! You can always on your Facebook, Twitter, BBM, YM, MSN, download new themes or games, etc. My BB is always in my hand even though I have no SMS, BBM or tweets to reply. I would go completely nuts if I don't have my BB with me or if the battery running dry.

I'm not the only one got hypnotize by BB, my boyfriend too. Whenever we see each other, there will ALWAYS be a time where we totally ignore each other because we are too busy playing with our BB. Oh and not to forget, he will always make me talk to myself. I will go "sayang, bla bla bla...." then he'll say "huh? what? what did you say? sorry I tak dengar." Sometimes I seriously feel like I wanna smack him. SERIOUSLY.

Now you see how BB has take over my life..oh and his life too..LOL.

Hello Hello...it's May!!!

Wow, its already May? How time flies so fast.

Hello guys... So I've been MIA for 2months & 1day, and no I didn't count, I just realized that my last post was on March 14th and today is May 15th..so yes its 2months & 1day..ngee =D

So many things have happened.......

Grandma is here!! She's been here since May 3rd with grandpa, but grandpa have to go back 2days after that because he got work to do. No, he's not working. Ada lah projek dia, hehehe.

My semester break just started 2days ago..yeay!!! I'm glad it is over. It was one hell of a semester. I've been struggled to complete my proposal for my thesis. Its not that hard actually, but the lecturer is making it really hard on us. ALL OF US. The other 2subjects are a lot harder..man, I'm glad that I'm still alive..LOL.

End of this month my boyfriend and I are going for holiday with his friends and the girls. I'm sooo excited!!!!!!! It's gonna be fun, fun, fun!!!!!!!

Last Thursday (May 12th, 2011) someone and her gang has created a drama. Well, that shows that someone is soo bloody bored with her life. Yelah, she's been married for years, jobless with no kids, only her laptop, siblings and her mother as her bestfriend. She doesn't know the truth behind the whole situation, and yet she's making her own conclusion and bash people in Facebook. The rest of her gang pun kesian, all they do is work work work, the other one is work work work, being a slut slut slut.  You and your gang seriously don't have the guts to come straight to people and tell them right in the face kan? Cakap belakang pandai. She finally know the real story, then what happen? Senyap. Malu kan bila main assumed je? I bet she go and tell the whole gang that the other person called her and confronted her. But somehow I got a feeling she wont be telling the whole story, she probably tukar-tukar sikit, yelah takkan nak memalukan diri sendiri cerita kat orang dia kena maki ye tak? Grow up people!!! Dah tua, kubur dah panggil mari, act like a grown up will ya?!! Otak jangan letak kat bontot boleh? Kata graduate in US lah bagai with a successful career, being a rich house wife and  a high-class waitress..then guna lah otak tu sikit. Its okie, what goes around comes around right? Allah tu Maha Besar. I saw someone post this quote in Twitter, says "There's no need for revenge. Those who hurt you will eventually screw up themselves and if you're lucky, God will let you watch." Yes oh yes, I'm 110% agree with it. Let Allah do His job.

What the hell is this?!! A clothes or spider webs? I love fashion, but this is just........ugly, ridiculous, inappropriate and weird. All blend in one.

Don't

Don't try to change me.
Because someday I will change.
People change.
I'm still young.
I just wanna live my life to the fullest.
Let me do what ever I want, as long as I don't cross the line.
Let me be myself.
Don't try to change me.
Don't tell me what I can and can't do.
Don't try to change my style, how I dress up.
Don't try to change me to become someone who I am not.
Don't.
This is who I am from the beginning, this is who I will always be.
But I do believe in changes.
When the time has come, I will definitely change.
Definitely.

am i ready?

It all started in 2009. I was in Middle East. Love the country, but.....ah, nevermind. Anyway, in Middle East (depends on what country are you) all female must wear hijab. ITS A MUST. They look so beautiful, the arbaya..masya'allah!! Jangan dikenang. Gorgeous!! The minute I landed in that country, I was surrounded with all the local people (duh, obviously!), they're all wearing arbaya and hijab..and so, I fell in love with the arbaya. I told myself that one day when I'm ready I wanna wear exactly like that. I went nuts every time I saw arbaya boutique. Mummy and daddy bought me arbaya and recently Jim's mum bought me one from Mekkah  =) sangat happy okie!!

So back to the title. Damn! This is hard for me to say. Okie...*take a deep breath* Since end of last year, I can't stop asking myself when am I going to cover up and I can't stop looking at shawls. I have no idea how or why all of the sudden hati tu terdetik sampai macam tu sekali. At the same time I ask myself, "Are you ready Tarra? Or is it just a hunch? Because a hunch is not good enough. You will end up bukak tutup bukak tutup just like others". I hate to say this but its true. Now days ramai perempuan suka pakai bukak pakai bukak tudung..I'm not saying semua but kebanyakkan. Get what I'm saying? I don't wanna be like them. Hell no!! Kalau dah tutup, means tutup terus. I've told my mum about it, she said she'll be happy if I'm ready to cover up and she even remind me not to take it off if I decide to wear hijab. Hurmmm....I feel like telling my boyfriend about this, actually I was about to tell him yesterday during our lunch..but, saya segan. LOL...pelikkan? Benda ni pun nak segan. I dunno. Takut dia terkejut beruk pulak..LOL. Haih...Ya Allah..tak tahu lah =/

Until now I still don't have the answer. I'm still in the stage of confusion. I don't know what I actually feel. I'm still searching for the answer. I hope one day Allah SWT will give me the answer to my question. Amin.

Wait..why the hell did I start writing about this??? Haih..bosan ke apa ni? Hurmm...tak apa lah, dah tulis panjang-panjang baru sekarang nak realized. Oh well, its not like there are people reading my blog..kan? =p  

it was like.....woooaah!!

Something happened today..should I say interesting things happened? Its definitely a good thing but there's one thing happened that makes me feel so touched and shocked. I never thought it will happen this fast, but I do know it will soon happen in the future. Will get use to it although I do feel a little bit awkward..hehe.

At the end of this wonderful day, I received a gift. Its touches my heart. Looking forward to 'use' it. Thank you so much =)

Cinderella's castle. Oooowh....it reminds me of my childhood years. Blissful years.
I have a polly pocket of Cinderella's castle. Eh wait, where's the polly pocket eyk??? Damn!!

end of chapter 2, let's start with chapter 3

Its 12:02 a.m. and I still can't sleep and I should have been sleeping by now because I have class tomorrow morning at 9 a.m. Tarra, Tarra..you definitely gonna have a hard time waking up tomorrow. Mummy always remind me to sleep early, she said "you look like a panda"..LOL. I'm sorry mummy but I can't =(  I used to sleep early, but ever since I finished my diploma started to sleep around 3 or 4 a.m. Shouldn't have make it as a 'habit' (I don't think habit is the right word..LOL)

Enough with the sleeping disorder. So, what's new.......?

Well, my new semester started on early February. My result just came out yesterday (3rd March 2011) and I pass with flying color...yeay me!!! I was so nervous to get my result because I'm having difficult time doing the Financial Management report. Its one hell of a report I tell ya!! Susah sangat!! Furthermore I really hate anything that got to do with finance. Alhamdulillah I pass. I got B. I know, I know..B is not something you should be proud of. But I feel so relief and bersyukur sangat, feels like the burden has been thrown away from me.

That's the end of Chapter 2 (year 2)

Move on to Chapter 3 (year 3 - Final Year).

Dang!!! I can't believe I'm in final year. Yeay!!! LOL.. Sangat risau, nervous and excited to start doing my thesis. Lepas tu habis belajar. I just can't wait to finish my study and start working. Yes I know working life is tougher than being a student. Many people been telling me and complaining how hard and tough work can be. People back-stab you just to get to the top, people envy you, if you're unlucky you will work with crazy people,etc. Honestly, I'm scared listening to all those story, but life must go on. Takkan nak hidup as a student and semua nya depends on duit parents. My sister's friend is now 30 years old and he is still studying, not working and still depends on his father. He's been changing courses and colleges..how pathetic is that???? 

Okie, now its already 12:27 a.m. I should go to sleep now..nanti susah nak bangun. Good night peeps!! ;)